7.28.20007 Arch Nemesis
  I'm sure I'm not the only person on the planet to have an arch-nemesis. In high school is was Jason DeRusha and in college it was John LaFlamboy and now at the age of 33, I thought for sure those days were over. Not so. This time it's a writer named Diana Kemp-Jones. Every single time I'm up for an award with Diana, she wins and I come in right after her. I'm in need of my second 1st Place (first with a high profile film festival) with my screenplay to really start pushing my script so I can fulfill my dream of directing it. Tonight I was up for two awards, Best Dramatic Scene and Best Short Script at the Action On Film Festival. I lost Best Dramatic scene to Diana but we both lost in the Best Short Script category. I was actually happy it wasn't her winning over me. (which I knew was wrong of me to think/feel) It just gets so frustrating after awhile to keep coming in second to the same person! I've thought of calling her out at the festivals because she's considered a 'professional writer' since she's been published and shouldn't be competing in these amateur film festivals. (Hell ya, I looked into my competition!) But I never did. I would rise above it and pray that one day I would beat her out. I even did a re-write after my third 'loss' (i.e. I placed but only after she took the win) to her. Well, there's only one other film festival I've entered "Life After" into. In only a couple short weeks I'll find out if I made it into the finals. My last ditch effort to try to beat her out.
   
6.13.2007 Chi-town!
  Perfect timing to get a job in Chicago! Elisa was kind enough to hire me as a Field Producer on a shoot for E! I'm staying with my good friends - the Sheridan Family (Tim gave me my first job after college and his family has taken me in as sort of an adopted daughter/sister) who are the kindest people I know. So I'm in Chicago for my birthday to enjoy Brenda's awesome cooking, REAL Chicago pizza, and just the general happy feeling that is Chicago. Damn, I miss this place! On Friday - I actually have to work doing my favorite thing ever - Fielding Producing. Then I'm back on a plane just in time for football practice on Saturday. YEAH!
   
6.12.2007 The Gallery is now open!
   
6.11.2007 Hollywood Karaoke now ON SALE!
  You too can have a piece of my embarrassment for only $5.00! You can buy a DVD of the show at: http://h2otv.net/Shop.html

 

The show will air here in Los Angeles on June 13th. How fitting, that's my birthday!
   
6.5.2007 The Show Must Go On
No matter how nervous a performer is... money is time and we can't waste time on a nervous performer to gather their wits about themselves... and so we went on. It took approx. 90 minutes before we could get on stage and in that time, we all got to know a little more about each other. One's a mom who's in LOVE with Prince (her daughter brought a cool sign in support of her Mom), three are actors, one already thinks she's a Broadway star and then there's me. And if you've seen me nervous in front of a crowd (even a small 6 person crowd) then you know that I'm a frickin' riot!  All I can do is keep cracking jokes, poking fun - mostly at myself - and just letting off some nervous energy with some good ole fashion laughter. Well, it paid off.  I went in there saying "The only way I can win this thing is if I'm the bigger ass. Just make 'em laugh." I even told the other contestants this and BAM... well, I don't want to give it all away here but I think when you see the show when it airs you'll laugh, pee a little and finally shake your head and say, "I don't know that girl." I owe my performance to my nervousness and to my cat. (You'll get that joke later.) Stay tuned for air dates and times of HOLLYWOOD KARAOKE!

 

When I was seven I told my Mom that I wanted to entertain people... I did that today. Thanks Mom! 

   
6.4.2007 Nerves...
  In about 12 hours I'll be on a stage singing for the sole purpose of being judged for my talent and performance. I can't remember the last time I've been this nervous. I've practiced for weeks yet the confidence is lacking. I would feel better if there was one soul in the audience I knew but no one could or would take the time off from work to witness my... triumph or failure. Lets hope it's the first one. I have my 'Winning" tiki that I bought in Hawaii, a ring that Jen bought me and a necklace Eric bought me. Now I need you... wish me luck, pray or whatever because I'll need all the love and well wishes I can use right now. 
   
5.21.2007 Singing Carrie
Well, I did it. I'm officially making as ass out of myself on June 5th! I advanced to the next round of the Hollywood Karaoke contest. The next round: I have to sing in front of a live studio audience and a panel of judges who will decide who goes to the final round. I've become so nervous I'm seeing someone who has a PHD in voice. He specializes in musical theater which is perfect because in this competition you are judged on performance more than talent.  I've finally decided on "Black Velvet" for my song though I tried like mad trying to get "All that Jazz" edited down to 2 minutes (we have a time limit, yuck).   I'll keep you informed on when and where you can see my performance. :)

 

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